my life fast forward

ok so it's been a while since i've posted anything, and i'm terribly sorry, just got overwhelmed with school work. before i knew it, it had been over a month. Math is going ok, and science is fun sometimes. I love my design class, although it's very challenging. I have so many projects on my plate and wish there were more hours in the day. Everytime i work on a new piece, i kind of shock myself on what i accomplished. i hope that doesn't sound arrogant, but i guess i still haven't reached my full potential which is promising :) my skills just keep improving. i'm going to keep it short. This is the reproduction i did of Magrittes "Homesickness". it was my first time working with color soft pastels and i was happy with the way it turned out. it has a very peaceful quality about it. Til next time :)

successful semester is go

Ok, it's Tuesday and I've met and seen all my teachers for this semester. I don't know why I freak myself out every time classes are about to start. I must really be on the right path because everytime I go to that first class, I'm immediately at ease and can finally relax and get to the business of the class. My one exception, of course, is that last speech class, which grade was resolved, thank goodness. My professor finally said that she believed me and is going to switch my grade to a B, YAY!

So yesterday I met my friend Lauren before school, which I enjoyed, we walked around and found eachothers classes, she went to class first and then I went to see Mr. Bell for my algebra class. He remembered me from the last class, and said he was happy I returned and then joked that he obviously didn't fulfill the math teachers quota of student torture and misery.

After Math, I went to my Earth Space Science class and met Mrs. Crews. She seemed really nice and helpful, and we were put into group according to where we randomly sat. My group was nice, and funny, and I'm looking forward to the next class.

Then today, I went to my Design class with Mr. Harewood. He looked surprised to see me, but he went right into explaining what the course was about, and ALL the supplies I need. 58 dollars worth from reddi arts, with a student discount of course. When it was over he told me that he thought I had already taken this course, maybe it showed in my work?

Well, that's all for now, I have homework to do. :)

The picture I posted was an in class assignment to teach us value/shading.

frustration

well, I have been having a lot of trouble at school, fortunately, I found a patron of the arts to pay for my fall tuition (thanks mom and dad, I'll pay you back ASAP). I'm now having trouble with my grade for my speech class. My teacher didn't receive my homework assignment and I didn't receive credit for it. So I'm one point away from my B. :( I e-mailed her several times and now I'm preparing for a fight, again. I'm wondering if it's even worth it. I'm going to try again, because I know I worked for it, and should have gotten that B. I'll let you know when I get it taken care of. Here's something pretty to look at.

This drawing is called cowskull. Creative, right? i really like this one. I feel like this was one of the assignments that my professor really pushed me through it and I noticed the difference. Next week I start my design course with the same teacher, and I'm really looking forward to it. That's all, til next time :)

Speech is DuDuDone

I hear the angels chorus from the heavens, I got through speech and can't be happier. I finished the final and got a B. That, with the extra credit, got me a B in the course, YAY, I'm happy with it, even though that's the lowest grade I've gotten since I started. I got all the info I need to get my student loan money. Hopefully that will be taken care of tomorrow. Then I'm home free til the 31st and I can't wait to start my new classes. I ran into my drawing 2 friend at a random musical art performance at cd connection. I was trying to buy a cd and ended up watching a kid play experimental music with a baby doll audience while he read his poetry. Everyone was enthralled but I thought it was pretty.... standard. It always makes me think about modern art, and pushing boundaries. It's good to go outside the lines, and not hold yourself back, but too much of it, and people will just think you have a chemical imbalance. I don't want to be a, "look at me, i'm an artist, i'm crazy" artist. I just want to be great. I want my hands to be able to create the images that are in my head. Is that also what art is? maybe i'll find out this semester.

the last speech

So it's 2:30 in the morning, and I'm stressing about this speech I have to give tomorrow. It's the last one in this class. and I just want it to be over. At first I was excited about the assignment, it's about a person of interest. I picked Morgan Spurlock, he's a documentary film maker. I think his work is very interesting, but probably not that interesting to talk about for 5 minutes. I need to remember how I got through the last speech. I think I just chanted my mantra, confidence, over and over. I also did some heavy meditation and success visualization. People gave me a lot of advice on how not to choke in front of a crowd. I'm also still trying to hear from the financial aid people. They really get under my skin now.

I just need to spend the rest of my day tomorrow practicing and preparing. I'll let you know how all that goes. And just to have something pretty to look at. Here's my picture, Backsides.

End of Summer

When I think about high school.... I remember being surrounded by juvenile self absorbed idiots. I understand kids that hate going there, there's no place to be yourself, your always being treated like a child yet being asked to act like an adult. I know why I bolted from there all those years ago. I remember thinking.... ugh, why would anyone choose to go to college.... why pay for that mess? Well, now I'm doing it... I'm pursuing higher education and it's difficult, expensive, scary, and I'm really looking forward to it. In this blog, I'm going to talk about my college experience from the point of view of someone that wants it very badly.. I want to learn a lot, and grow, and see my skills surpass my expectations. This is not school daze blog about excessive partying, keg stands, and beer pong. My ultimate goal is to end up back in high school as an art teacher, but to get there, I have to get through FCCJ, and then UNF first. Here we go.

As I take the first step into August, there are many things on my mind. My birthday, fast approaching, my summer hybrid speech class, almost over. The Fall term starting less than a week later. My financial aid..... ugh, financial aid... where are you? I'm getting the run around from the "nice" ladies at the student success center, which I believe were recruited from the DMV. I reread the vague letter I received this last week that stated that I wouldn't be receiving any funds for school. It reads...

Dear student,

You have applied for help. You will not receive said help for one or all of the following reasons. A) You did not turn in required documentation. B) You do not qualify for help. C) You're part of a random study to see how much foolishness we can dish out to our students before their heads pop off their bodies.

Ha Ha, you lose,

FCCJ

Ok this may be exaggerated... but thats how it feels. I guess they really want to make sure you WANT to further your education. I'm hoping this is all squared away ASAP. I really can't wait to start my fall classes. I get to see some of my old professors Mr. Harewood for Design I and Mr. Bell for my icky math class. I plan on posting all of my student work on here, starting with some of the old stuff. I'll start a few at a time.